Christmas Day

Merry Christmas to all! Today started out with myself waking up at the ungodly hour of 7:30 to open gifts, then I went to Dan's house to let Chelsea out. My Daddy was supposed to come that morning to hang out for a bit...but he never showed up :(. I called him and left messages but nada. So while Mike, Mom, Cary, and I were driving to VA to see my Grandparents, Aunt, and Uncle he called and asked if we could meet him at Grandma's. We saw him there after we were done eating but it was awkward cause he can't come inside cause my Papa doesn't like him very much :P. Anyway, i got some nice gifts. My favourite would have to be the headbands I got, they are gorgeous! ^__^. I had made a list for my family because they asked me too before Christmas...but i didn't get anything on my list XD. I was a little disappointed about it...but i can't say I didn't see it coming, they did that last year too :P.
I got a TON of books. Books about Amish people, books I've already read XD. Kinda a fail, but i bought myself Angels and Demons and the Three Musketeers :). I don't want to seem ungrateful for the books I got...but I can tell I'm just not gonna read them XD.
Tomorrow My brother and I are going to the Mall to shop the sales! LOL. I wish I could see Dan on Christmas but we has families stuff to attend to :P I miss him lots. LOVE YOU DAN! i think you're the only one reading this anymore XD. If you even still read it :P

caryatid

:(

I know yesterday I had some fun but it was short-lived. I NEED MORE OF IT. I feel really lonely, i can't use the car (mom has it right now) no one seems to ever text me back. I kinda feel like I'm being shunned :( although i don't think that's true. So far this break has been kinda shitty :P
Highlight of the day: Paige giving me my gift :)

caryatid

Avatar

Beautiful movie, the picture was so cool to look at. I absolutely loved it. Although this movie was showing the people of Pandora, I think it's a lot more about Pandora itself. IDK if anyone will understand what I mean by saying that but i'll give it try. I think it was more about the Planet because of the setting. Everything was always so beautiful. If there was a shot of the people flying; the background would be so pretty I couldn't even watch the people. Also how the Naavi people were connected to everything by their hairstrands. They could connect to the animals and the Earth. I enjoyed this movie a lot :).
So far break has been boring, but tonight made everything a lot more fun because I was with people. Originally I was supposed to see Avatar with Derrick and friends. But tonight I went with Eric, Nic, Dan, Peter, and Ryan. Afterwords we went to McDonald's and I saw Derrick and his brother Alex. I felt bad that I didn't see it with him. But we couldn't yesterday because of the snow :(.
Everything's been really chill. No drama for me, no expectations. College stuff almost complete. Everythings going fine. I just hope it stays that way til after break :).
AND I NEED TO DANCE!!! I need to go to a party ASAP. ferrealllll :D:D:D::D

caryatid

Season's Greetings

Today I woke up at about 12 and looked outside my door to see about a foot of snow! Then I become blinded by the light and fall over and hit my face on a table. Now there is a scratch on my cheek :(. It's kinda funny, but it hurt XD. I finished my William and Mary and Marymount Manhattan essays, now i just have to send em in ^__^. Gosh everything's been working out lately and today I'm smiling :D. I kinda miss hanging out with people. This week I've been really distant. I'm not sure why...maybe it's because I was so stressed about all my projects, or maybe it's because i have a new obsession for Vampire Diaries! Whatever it is, I'm stopping it and hanging out with people XD. It's only the first day of Winter Break and I can already tell that this break was much needed ^__^.
My Granddad wants to take the family to England because a lot of us have never been before. I would LOVE to go if he decides that's what we're doing this summer. I'm really excited for the future ^__^

caryatid

100th post!

WOWzers, I never thought i'd make it to this number! haha, i actually just never even thought about making to to any number...Anyway this past week has gone by VERY SLOWLY. I mean it's only Tuesday but i want it to be Friday soooo bad. Today in Global Studies Sof was a COMPLETE asshole to the first group to present this big project. They didn't have a laptop so he freaked out on them. It's not their fault for not being able to get a laptop, that shits expensive! I felt so bad and a lot of the class did too. Tomorrow Taylor and I go to present and I'm kinda nervous. I really hope everything works out fine for this project because I definitely do not want to deal with the wrath of Sof.
I did my Speech in Speech class today. It was on War of the Worlds because we just watched that film and have to tell about our favourite scene...it was an OK speech...I definitely could have done better. It's all over now :P. In Ap Lit I was told I looked like i was concentrating on something really hard XD Or like I had a lot on my mind. And apparently I've been very quiet lately...I do not notice this change in myself! In physics Derrick and I just passed notes and watched Mythbusters. Turns out your water heater can blow through your house like a rocket!
Play Practice today was SO BORING. I hate not doing anything, I want something to say! I want a part and I expected a part. I hate it. But it's not gonna get better if i just talk about how much i hate it. I just need to think that this musical will be fun and it will be :) New philosophy thanks to Derrick and Petruchio XD.
I'm reading Taming of the Shrew and The Joy Luck Club so expect characters from them popping up in here every once in a while XD.
Today I got Dan's gift in the mail. i have to return it though because I fail :(
I've been watching Vampire Diaries recently, it's a pretty good show :)
I also need to work on my Senior Paper -_- this is gonna suck with no printer T_T I can't do everything again, but it always ends up working out...someway.
I need to party this break. really really need too

caryatid

Crunchy Leaves Make me Smile

Today was...alright. Project still not perfect -_-. School computers suck. Technology sucks. Sof's just gonna have to deal with it cause we TRIED EVERYTHING :P. I'm siked for Winter Break. I really need this right now :) Even if i have to spend it alone...actually I'll be kinda pissed if i have to spend my break alone but whatevs XD. I won't be, hopefully. I just don't have any money to go out and party with people. I still don't know what I'm doing for New Years. I want to go have fun :) I think I will.
Still upset about Annie -_- I know i have no control over everything that's happened, i just wish I could have been given a chance. I know I can do really well and no one's ever given me the chance to try. I hate that. The casting doesn't make sense to me, but whatever they think is best is what's gonna happen -_-. I DON'T CARE I DON'T CARE. Maybe if I say it enough i'll actually start not caring....I DON'T CARE...nope not working. I do care :P
I'm still having issues with having girlfriends. I don't feel lonely, but I miss that feeling of girl talk. I know I talk the same with boys, i just wish i had a Paige with me a lot. Britt and I are just not talking...ever i think. She was a good friend to me when I didn't have a boyfriend, or when I was lesser than her. Once I had something better than her we started to grow apart. And i didn't really care. I always thought if I lost a friend as close as Britt I would care a lot. But it honestly did not effect me...like at all. I just wanted things to be better between us but they never got better. So i stopped trying. I know part of me having friends involves me TRYING to make them. But I guess i'm just in my comfort zone right now and I don't want to let any new people into my life and try to established a nice friendship yaknow?
I need to email my guidance counselor college stuff.


caryatid

Fuck It All

Wow the Annie Cast is really gonna suck. Really considering quitting, but everyones like NOOOOO BLAHBLAHBLAH. I don't give a shit. I'm nothing, it sucks. Don't say "i'm sorry" cause you may care but that's not gonna help me boost my ego. Give me a hug instead bitch. I want to quit really bad, but i also want to stay...I don't know why, because i'm not getting anything out of it. -_-
Watching Glee right now. it's totally not going to make me happier. I think I'll be bitchy for aboutttt a week or so. Until I find something that makes me happy.
Finished the Da Vinci Code. It was good. I'm now reading The Joy Luck Club :). I'm happy about that. Kinda
Wow I never thought this would bring me down so much. I just actually expected a part and i guess you have to learn not to expect anything. Whatever


caryatid

The Age of Innocence

I want to read that book. Almost done The Da Vinci Code. It's amazing how much I didn't know XD. I can't wait to read Angels and Demons, I should have read that one first but i do not own that one just yet. Today I slept til 11:45 when i heard a knock on the door. But I didn't answer the first knock because i was sleeping hoping whoever was there would go away. Then they knocked again. So I went downstairs and a cop car was out front pulling away...So i thought that was strange...a cop knocked on my door? i wonder why? So I call my mom and she was like WHAT did they leave anything? And i told her they did not. But when my mom got home she mentioned something about these charges, and told me not to worry about it? Whatevs. I'm not gonna worry. hopefully.
Tomorrow Taylor is coming around 3 to work on our project. Maybe if we get done early we can go to the mall or something ^__^. I want to find ideas for Dan's XMAS gift. And I'll have to remember that he doesn't read -_-. Unless its about David Bowie. Or if Mrs. Butler gives him something to read.
I think I have Carpel Tunnel in my Pinkey finger >.< it doesn't go straight on it's own T_T_T_T. not gonna worrry.
I'm pretty anxious to see how the musical turns out >.< i thought i knew who was gonna get who, but now i have no idea. :P I really wish my Guidance Counselor would come to school to help me with my college shit T_T she wasn't in school alll week so I'm FREAKINGGG sighsighsigh

caryatid

Good Fences Make Good Neighbors

Robert Frost is surprisingly pessimistic. Haha I always thought he was optimistic, I'm looking at his poems in a whole different way now :). And I kinda like it. Today were auditions for Annie. I did well, i could have done better. But i did well enough. We'll see the results next week :).
In first period Taylor and I got bitched at by Sof. because we have a week more to do our project but it's not good enough yet. Whatever, I wasn't even there yesterday so i'm kinda pissed because I do good in school. I don't get that kinda shit everyday. I think he was just in a pissy mood because all the computers were down, but seriously don't take it out on the kids because us seniors have enough to worry about right now. Like out FUTURES -_-. Dr. Wolffs classes were relaxing. Thank God I have two classes with her this semester. We're watching "The Searchers" in Speech. I kinda like it...haha John Wayne is so funny XD. "That'll be the day!" LOL
Physics was cool, we learned stuff about surfers. And we watched the Perfect Storm. Mark Wahlburg is kinda attractive. I never noticed before XD FAIL.
My mom bitched at me today too for not having a job. I want to do the musical and if I get a part I don't want to get a job. I have schoolwork to do. And if i get a job it'll just be wasting my time. Like my mom was saying "when i was 16 I had a job and i worked all the time YOU SHOULD TOO TO FUCKING HELP ME PAY THE BILLS!" my response? "yea but you got shitty grades" and i wish i added "and you never had to work and give all your earned money to your Mom. This isn't the 1900s. I don't want to waste my time working for her. Then i wouldn't get much time to be with Dan, or social time for friends, or be able to keep any of my money for bday or xmas presents. Whenever i get money, mom just has to steal it. IT SUCKS SO MUCH. I want to get my friends gifts, and i want to buy them stuff when i have money but i can't with her taking it all! I feel like a loser -_-. I just want to move out and go to college(cause she won't be paying for it), and making my own money that I get to keep ALLLL to myself. It's sad that i don't know what it feels like to keep the money you earn. :(


caryatid