An Empty Shell

Maybe one day I'll write a tidbit about my middle school life. Just to get it out there. I haven't thought about it in a long time, but recently it's starting to come back to me. I don't like the way I was back then, I'm too embarrassed to think or talk about it. SO maybe I'll write it...maybe. I was very stupid back then though. I was stupid, but i had reasons to be. I had no one. I was a complete insecure loser who thought too highly of herself. I know that doesn't make sense put together. But that was exactly who I was.
I don't feel like talking about it today.

caryatid

Remembering Sunday

I'm sitting here, procrastinating :). I don't know why I smile when I say that word...but i do XD. WELL yesterday Derrick and I went to the mall! I went for shoes, Derrick for pants. WELLL haha, I found 3 shirts and 2 skirts XD, and Derrick found a shirt. SO WE FAILED T_T. I did find a good pair of shoes, but they didn't have any left at Sear's. So maybe I can hassle my Mom into getting me a new pair online ( they are much needed, believe me! My other boots have holes in them XD).
Today at school I received my Senior Paper grade. I got an A- on it. I think that's a good grade and all, it's just when Dr.Woolf gave it to me she said, "I felt ambivalent about your paper, Christie." I always feel like Dr.Woolf is holding me up to this higher expectation than everyone else. I think it may be just me, but I think she really does! Maybe it's just the fact I have 3 classes with her and we're BFFS XD jkjk. WHAT DOES AMBIVALENT MEAN?!?!?! T_T_T_T_T. Well I should be getting my final say from Drexel within the week, that's exciting. But I don't think I really want to go to school there. I just applied cause there was no application fee :). I really hope to get into all the other schools I applied to though. I still may apply to two more, I'm thinking about York college and St.John's a lot lately. Maybe I will apply to them ^__^, depends how I'm feeling after finals XD.
Today this boy names Alexsander Landolfi stuck his head in my face, it was really awkward and I looked away, but he was literally like a centimeter away from my face XD. It was so weird! Anyway, practice was horrible! Everyone sounds sad and it's supposed to be a happy song XD. Also the leads aren't that great, they're boring! :P I wish he would just choose different people. That's what he needs to do if he wants this show to be any good :P
Lovely Bones comes out this weekend! But I may be going to Dan's Dad's house this weekend. I love Dan's Dad's family, they're so nice and his little brothers and sister are so cute!!! I can't get over how cute Jackson is, I love him. SORRY DAN YOU HAVE COMPETITION ;D

caryatid

Wake Up in the Morning

I'm feeling like P.DIDDY. Just kidding. I'm actually on weheartit.com and looking up french pictures because I'm feeling a little French today :). I miss my camera. I would really love to put on a pretty outfit and take pictures in the snow today. But, I cannot. Because I did not receive a camera for Christmas and it's been about 2 years since I've had one -_-. I miss doing the little photo-shoots :P.
Well today I will be going over to Helena's to have a girls night! I'm really excited for this because I haven't had a girls night in...about 6 months. So this is much needed :).
O I FORGOT TO SAY! Today is a Snow Day! WOOHOO. Gonna watch Gossip Girl today :D. I'm addicted, yes.
Seeing as it's only the morning I do not have much to say, maybe later in the day I will :P.
O! Last night I was trying to figure out how to change my background to a picture. I just don't know how :P. If anyone knows. Help me?

Caryatid

Chipped Nails

My problem today: chipped nails. All day they kept chipping! All I want is some nice nailpolish that don't chip, and i would love nice nails that don't indent, and i would also love nice soft hands. But we don't get everything we want do we?
Songs stuck in my head today: WE AT DA HOTEL, MOTEL, HOLIDAY INN!!! haha and ONLY THE GOOOOOOOD DIEEEEE YOUNGGGG. It got really bad during physics. All i could say XD
Today I wore this shirt I bought at Second Hand Rose yesterday. It's a boys shirt i think...it fits like a boys. But I put a waist cincher on it to make it more form fitting, and now iz girly! :D
Hopefully we have a snow day tomorrow, or some kind of a delay :P I would really enjoy that extra rest. ALSO I WOULD LOVE IT IF THE WEATHER WAS WARMER. I bought some cute dresses that I can't wear in this godforsaken cold -_-.
Unlike last January and February when I was sad. This January and February actually seems to be looking like it's gonna be fun :D. I'm totally excited for what my future holds! :)

caryatid

Second Hand Rose

Today started out pretty nice. I even had Alexis mention, "You're looking cheerful today!" She's adorable! The fact is I was feeling pretty good. I also still felt awesome when i went shopping with my mother (which is shocking btw). We went to Second Hand Rose, I bought a few shirts and a little surprise for Dan :). We also went to Safeway; as usually the first thing I do when I go there is Starbucks. I ordered a Chai Tea Latte, but they gave me some sort of coffee at first? And I was like WOAH, nu uh I need my chai. So they fixed it and it was yummy, just a tad too milky :P. STILL GOOD. Then I get home and I ask Dan if Sydney has texted him back yet. And he said that she had texted him back but said "Hey"... I was like WTF?! After he sends her a novel she just replies days later with a "Hey". Is she mentally challenged? Really? If she doesn't reply to Dan I will talk to her. Hell I'll probably still talk to her about this even if she does reply to Dan's message. People really piss me off -_-.
OVERALL: still in good mood :). I'm going to take a nice shower to relieve my anger XD.

P.S. THOSE PEARS ARE SO COOL
caryatid

Steamed Dumplings

I have adopted a new love for Chinese food. Having not grown up with the delicious taste as a child it was a sudden PANG when I ate some the other night with Molly and Nic. I realized I LOVE CHINESE FOOD! It's amazing! I cannot believe my Mom has been keeping me from this because of a food poisoning accident :P. But she's always been a worry-wort like that. You learn to live with it.
I've decided that I will write how I actually feel in these blogs, because usually I keep it friendly here incase someone I know sees it...but I'm positive none of my friends even use this anymore XD so WOOHOO free thoughts coming out XD.
Well today I wrote a note to Dan in speech, ranting about how i feel and how things will play out if anything else happens. I think I'm getting my point across this time...
Physics was moderately simple and understandable today...surprisingly, we're learning about magnets. And we're building a motor right now. It's kinda fun. Michelle and I's wooden block broke the first time though XD We learned our lesson. Wrapping the damn wire about the nail took FOREVERRR. lol
Listening to Lady GaGa's new album. I like it. It's different. She has a good voice. And even though she's weird, i love her.
I was reading Just Listen and the main character Annabel reminds me of myself a bit... here's something she said:

a message sank into me: that being nice is the ideal, the one place where people didn't get loud or so quiet they could scare you. If you could just be nice, then you wouldn't have to worry about arguments at all. But being nice wasn't as easy as it seemed, especially when the rest of the world could be so mean.

Nic called me today, I think Bonnie was in the background XD I heard someone else's voice. But they were making plans for Otakon. I'm really excited about this year! I think this one will be the best yet! :D They told me I should go as Vanille from FFXIII but i've only played a few FF games and haven't played the XIII one XD. I still really like her outfit. But I also like Bayonetta's outfit a lot too! Also Dan said I should be the Wendy's girl...I don't know which one is best XD.

caryatid

Hello 2010

I think I've been using this thing for almost a year. That's surprising, i usually don't stick with things that long. Well WOOHOO Graduation year is here! And i've applied to 5 schools thus far :). It feels good, not gonna lie. I think I'll be ready for this. SO far lots of good things have happened in 2010!
My Mom's getting married to Mike on Oct 2nd :D and I might be getting a little green car from my Dad! Which then will allow me to get a job and I'll be having $$$$ :D I was so happy on New Year's at Casey's with everyone. It's nice having a big fun new years with all your friends and you can actually remember it XD. I love Casey's mom, Miss Patty. She is a sweetheart.
But there has been a minor bump in the road although it's only January 3rd -_-. Dan is a major poop head. He's so stupid and idc if he's reading this cause he needs to hear it. He needs to get his act together. He's getting harder to trust...I hate that I feel like I'm not good enough. If this doesn't change, I'm going to change it for us :P I love him so much, and I really hope he keeps his promises. I don't ever wanna feel the same way i felt when he broke up with me last March. And I NEVER EVER wanna feel the way i felt last June. Although it came close the other night -_-. I didn't get as mad as I wanted too. I just want him to know that he has a good thing going for him being with me :/ and that hurting my feelings won't keep me here. I'm sure he knows that though, he just can't keep his penis at bay. I hope someone puts it on a stove XD
Men. are. stupid.
Well, school starts tomorrow and I finished the Joy Luck Club, it was an alright book...not a favourite though :P. I'm gald I read it :)
My New Year's Resolutions: Get a job, Wear pretty clothes again, start working out cause i'm getting lazy :P, learn to cook well :), have a kickass time at Otakon, stop caring about what others think of me, and not getting embarrassed.
OO! I forgot to say that we're going to be moving into a bigger house soon :D I'm excited!

caryatid