Catching Up

It was really nice hanging out with Nic today. I feel like I really needed that, and I just love catching up with people. There was rarely a pause in the conversation XD We both had a lot to say and I miss that. Having someone you can tell everything to.
I was telling Dan the other night that I've never really had a long-time best friend. Like most people have friends that they've known since elementary school. For me, my friends have only been constant for at the most 4 years. I believe it went Jerrica, then Maddie, then Britt and Lily. I've had other friends along the way that I consider my best friends too, but these 4 were like my family. Now I rarely talk to any of them. I just really miss my girl nights where we could go out and do the stupidest things but have the best time :).
I don't think I feel any different from someone who's had a friend for their whole life, I just think it would be really nice to have that. Someone you can trust no matter what happens. That's what I give to my friends. I give them all my trust, I don't believe I have ever broken someone's trust before. People have broken mine, but if you're my friend and I love you...no matter what you do...even if you murder someone, or hurt me in the worst possible way you could, I'll always forgive you (never forget though). I don't think that makes me weak at all. I think it makes me stronger. It shows that I have faith in people, and most of the time that's what people need. Everyone needs someone that believes in them. And right now, I don't think I have that.
Thank you blog for making me realize what I need: someone that can believe and rely on me. <3

caryatid

Feeling Trapped

Today I received another acceptance letter, from George Mason University, I was happy...my mother was ecstatic. This is THEE SCHOOL she wants me to go to. I honestly don't really like the school that much. It's supposed to be a good school...but it's in the area where I grew up, I don't wanna go back there, and there's a large student body there, I want to go to a small school like...o idk Marymount Manhatten: One of the schools my family pretty much forbids me from going to -_-. Although I got in with a scholarship, unlike with George Mason.
I overheard my Mom telling my Grandma today that I got into George Mason but that I don't wanna go there. My Grandmother pretty much told my Mom that I had to go there, and that there was no other option. It's close to them, so they can keep an eye on me. I wanted to SCREAM. I HATE THAT EVERYTHING GETS DECIDED FOR ME. This will not be their decision, IT IS MINE. Although they're family and helping me out with this...I will leave them if I have to. I want to be able to do what I want, and George Mason doesn't offer me that. George Mason keeps me trapped.
I feel like a prisoner to my family. I have to do everything within their qualifications. I can't even wear the shoes I want without them criticizing me or yelling at me to go wear something else! I may be sounding a bit ridiculous, but that's what they're doing to me. It really hurts my feelings, I used to have a certain style that I loved dressing up to, but now I'm just a normal girl, there's almost nothing left of me that's unique. Maybe I'm being a bit melodramatic, I'm sure there's some uniqueness left but I'm not feeling it right now.
I want to be the old Christie again, I want to have fun, I want to be bold.

Caryatid

J'ai une Idea

As I was reading my AP Lang textbook today it pointed something out about Journaling. It said that Journaling should not just be about what happens throughout your day, it should have a point, or idea about a certain message you want your audience to know. I consider this blog to be like a Journal for me, so reading that made me realize that I've been going about this all wrong.
I need IDEAS for what to write about! My everyday situations must get boring! SHEESH why did I not realize this?? I am not a pleasant writer to read, but I hope to be able to at least keep people interested! I feel as if I lost that ability...Anyway, my idea for today's blog is: Things you say you're going to do, but never actually end up accomplishing them. Like New Year's Resolutions.
Every year I attempt to fulfill a NYR, but it usually never gets done. This year my top two are to start dressing nice again(even in the cold!) and to tone up. SO FAR the two resolutions are unsuccessful. I have the clothes to be pretty again, but I'm just so goddamn lazy..O! Lazy in french = paresseux :P. And I also have the ability to tone up...I'm just still so PARESSUEX!!! How do I overcome this laziness?! And how do I become motivated. I NEED ANSWERS!!!
On the Brightside, the weather's finally warming up...WAIT off topic...DAMN this is difficult. LAZINESS SHOULD NOT CONTROL OUR LIVES. but it still manages to come back to me after that really productive day yesterday T_T.
I'm leaving now :P

Caryatid

Philly

OK, So yesterday I was supposed to go midnight bowling with everyone...but that was canceled due to my Mother because we were to go to Philly today. We did do the 2 hour drive to Philadelphia for Tony Luke's. They do have really good food. But we were there for about 30 minutes...then left XD. We just got back. And I think it was worth it. I like cities for some reason. Mike said that our next trip is going to be to NYC for pizza XD. I really hope we do that! Because while we're up there I wanna visit MMC...and all the shopping <3.
I still need to do my AP Lang assignment. But I cannot bring myself to start working on it! All I've been wanting to do lately is DANCE. There's this party girl in me that really really really wants to come out. I feel really slutty when I say that but it's the truth! >.<
I was talking about Senior week today with my family and it's so exciting! The last time I was on my own in OC was last spring break. And we may be doing that again. Which would be fun! But last spring it was really chilly and rainy and not all that great :P. Hopefully this summer will be better! Beach EVERYDAY :D. WOOP WOOP!
Well I think that's all for now, I wanna start putting other things in my blogger though. Not just what I do during the day...hmmm. Maybe I should be all "Buddha says" again XD. Those were fun times. I used to be all philosophical XD. It was grrrrrrEAT. TATA FOR NOW. Hopefully I can go to England this summer :D That would be really exciting!

Caryatid

The Lovely Bones

Last night Dan and I went to see The Lovely Bones.It was an amazing movie and had me crying most of the time. Crying movies = good movies(because they can get a reaction outta you). It is my new favourite movie ^_^. We went to the Harbor Center to see it because it wasn't playing at Annapolis Mall. So now I know my way around Annapolis a little better! So that's good :).
When I got back to the island we went to Taco Bell, and we waited outside for like 15 minutes because I couldn't decided what I wanted XD. So Dan got angry and made me choose and go through the drive-thru :P. I had this 5 layer burrito thing...it was pretty good. I was kinda disappointed though because my Mom makes this thing that we call "Chicken-in-a-Bag" (that sounds so redneck XD). IT'S SO GOOD. And she said that she was going to make that for Dinner...but she didn't T_T So I had TB.
We went to the Bayside Clubhouse and got the movie Halloween 2. We didn't watch it though XD Because I was scared. So instead we watched All in the Family. i left at like 1:30 am -_- I used to be able to do that...now it's really hard to leave that late, because I feel like I'm going to fall asleep at the wheel :P. It could just be because school is in session and I'm using all my brain-power XD. NEXT SEMESTER COMING UP woop woop!
My classes are: French V, Trig, AP Lit, and AP Lang. Two classes with the Wolff again XD. I need to do that "summer assignment" for the class still -_- I'll try to start it today..but VAMPIRE DIARIES COMES ON TONIGHT!! It's really weird for me to like tv shows this much, but I follow Glee, Gossip Girl, and Vampire Diaries like it depends on my life . I think that's unhealthy.

caryatid

The Weekend

OK we'll start off with Friday: SO in AP Lit we took part of our final exam. I miscalculated the time and did not finish my essay. I was very upset about this because I have never not finished a timed essay! It was horrible :(, but then I came home later that day and found out I was accepted into another college, one i really wanted to go to :) Marymount Manhatten! :D. It's really nice knowing that I have a place to go now, a lot of my stress is gone :). Also Lately I've been feeling like I've gained a lot of chubby :(. it makes me upset, so I'm gonna do something about it. WELL ANYWAY in physics on friday I took another part of my exam, and it was easier than I thought :D. After school I went with Dan to his Dad's in NJ. His family is really nice, so I had a good time :). While we were there we watched Taken and Jennifer's Body. They were rally good movies! I was surprised that I like Jennifer's Body so much.
I can't wait to see Lovely Bones! It came out this weekend so hopefully I can catch it before it leaves!!!! :D schools tomorrow and I need to memorize the rest of my speech and read some more for AP Lit :P. Not too excited for school tomorrow -_-.


caryatid

Accepted

Well today I received my first acceptance letter! It was from Drexel, I also received the Dean's Scholarship so that's awesome! I'm super-excited about everything because it's the first one! And even though there's a slim chance of my going to Drexel, I'm glad I got in :).
Tomorrow are my finals and I'm heading to Dans Dad's with him for the weekend :). I'm nervous about the finals but happy to see Dans family :D. I have half of a physics final and half of an AP Lit final T_T. I need to study but i have yet to do so :P. I'm baking pizza right now though and doing the laundry :P. I'm being productive! Just not in a scholarly way XD. I'm a bit sad that this semesters over because i really liked Speech class with Derrick and Caitlin and everyone else. Also I'm gonna miss Physics a bit. I really like Mr.Mckim he's a sweetheart! Also I don't think I have any classes with Derrick next semester :P SO this STINKS T_T_T_T. But hopefully we have lunch together and see more of each other because of the musical :).
Lately I've been really self-conscious about myself. I feel like i need to start watching what I eat and working out again. Which I do need to do seeing as i don't get much walking time since this winters been so damn cold. I wish i had the clubhouse key so i could go to the clubhouse and run on the treadmill and do the bike thing!! :D haha i'm gonna ask mike for the key :). I also wanna do yoga with Nic soon. I promised him! ^__^
Hopefully I do well on my finals tomorrow, and hopefully Dan's toes get better, and hopefully I get fit and healthy again, and hopefully i get accepted to the rest of the colleges I applied to! ^__^

caryatid