divorce

So my mom's divorce was today. She's happy and relieved. I almost forgot about it today during school cause we had to perform for the 8th graders, that was funnnn. lolz. Photo Club was interesting too, sammy made a poster with pictures she's taken and they were really cool :]. Also Mr. Holland had this really old camera, it was cute lol. I am sad that my camera is still broken T_T, maybe i can get it fixed soon, or just buy one on my birthday :D. I turned in the money for the AP test today, fucking 86 dollars i better get back! >.<. And i turned in the NHS stuff today too. I feel like all this stress is just gone now XD. I hope i get in, i didn't last year T_T. I tend to fail a lot. sigh. I wanna try tennis, my brother's doing it, apparently he's not good, but he says he is, maybe i'll ask him to teach me ^__^. He gave me a hug thee other day when i walked into his French class XD, it was weird cause he always says he doesn't like me. He's a poophead. I drew a cloud on Dan's hand today, then he drew a face on mine, and i made the face eat the cloud. It was fun ^___^. I was happpier today then i tought i would be. I wore a cute outfit :D. I think I'm gonna wear another cute outfit tomorrow too! :D I never realized how much i love heels. I think from now on i'm just buying heels or colourful flats. I don't want sneakers XD. Mr. Sof and Mrs. Dennis wouldn't sign for my Nhs stuff, so i put their names on there anyway ^___^ they apparently don't remember me...cooooool. fucking assholes :P. I was talking to Casey today and her eyes were like neon green! it was so cool :D

caryatid

Hugh Heclo

"Ignorance may not be bliss, but it can be security"
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caryatid

normalboringme

The musical's almost over, i'm happier, things are getting better and more embarrassing everyday lol. I've been such a clutz lately. The only thing i really have to work on now is my grade in governement, just because i want an A and the nhs signatures XD. sighsighsighsighsigh. I've still got that lonely feeling. It needs to leave. Also working on getting my license, which i should of got a long time ago :P. Upon getting my license i need to get a job, too bad no one on this island wants to hire anyone T_T. I never write my true feelings in here, It makes me upset that i don't think i can write or express my true feelings. Well some of them i can, but most of them i just keep hidden. That's gotta stop. It hurts my tummy when i keep stuff in T_T. Really really weird dreams lately, i gots no idea what they mean O.o. Dan just told me that if i died that would be a good thing...love himmmm XD. My music is boring me, i hear it all the time its all the same, i need new stuff. Someone give me a good band pleaseee.

caryatid

yaynosleep

I love natalia vodianova, she's so pretty :D
Vero told me about her weekend today, i seriously cannot believe that was real. It was one of those things that you thought could only happen in movies, ugh if i was in her position i would just cry for days. She's such a strong person. I don't know how she can put up with those boys.
We didn't have to go to our 1st 2nd and 4th period classes today, i was upset i missed AP government, but hurlock gave me the stuff i need so i should do ok i guess T_T. The girls dressing room smells really bad, i hate it. I'm gonna be up all night, funnnn. :P
I need a job after the musical XD, lol i say that all the time but this one is ferreal ferreal :/.
I wore this comfy hoodie today, i love it.

caryatid

nouveauphotos

:D i took a bunch of new photos today with Britt ^___^. That was lots of fun, my shoes are soaked though, i think they're dry now :D. My mom left to spend the night at Johns. So i'm just here with my brother, doing the laundry, finishing up some homework, yaknowww. lol ap government is going to be stressful once we get back >.< sinced we missed so many days. nhs invited me again -_- i bet i won't get in again because i'm not good enough T_T. Whateva, sighsighsigh. So I drew a picture for dan, i thought it was cool, but its not T_T. BUT I TOOK PRETTY CUTE PICTURES TODAY, so it's ok ^___^. I need to do some quick community service XD. I'm listening to Bella's Lullaby, i'm gonna finish up The Host soon. I really have nothing to talk about.

caryatid

marshmellowfluff

I finished two books i've been meaning to read ^__^. I haven't left the house since the snows been so bad. sigh. I feel really really lonely. I'm not a fan of that feeling. I want to leave the house. Do something exciting. I need to go back to the way i used to be. it was a lot easier. I remember. I don't want to be worried all the time. I feel ugly now because of all the stuff i've been worrying about.
James Madison was a pretty school. I really liked it, but i don't like the being in the middle of the mountains part XD. You're pretty much two hours away from Dc or Richmond. But the people there were so nice and friendly. I'm going to visit George Mason, March 21st. I've been there before but i can hardly remember, even though it was just last year XD.
"It's really sad when you think something actually looks cute on you, then somebody makes a comment about how ugly you look in it, then you realize you're the only one who was ever stupid enough to actually think you looked good for once." I remember i used to feel like that all the time, so i would play it safe and wear normal clothes. Now i just don't care ^___^
I need new music
i want to be creative again, i feel like i've lost it. I'm gonna draw ^__^

caryatid

jkjhdfahjadfgn

i feel like shit. I've figured out all the information i needed to know. And i kind of wish i never figured it out. Wait, no i'm glad i figured it out. I think i have foresight. It seriously gets it right everytime.
I need to talk to some people. I need this to be fixed.