Deadlines

Wow, my mother really knows how to make every situation into a nightmare. She managed to make me cry all the while I was trying to show her what I've been doing with all my applications. My Dad made me feel soooo much better though. It's good to know at least SOMEONE is supporting what I actually want and not trying to force me to be in a feggin VIRGINIA school. It's not that I think Virginia schools are bad, I think they're really good. I just would rather be somewhere else...Like Annapolis, or NYC perhaps? Pretty much done application for GMU and Drexel. Now all I need is those damn essays -_-. I don't think I'm gonna be able to get all of my applications in by December 1st. And I guess that's ok, just makes the financial part of college a little more difficult :/. I guess I should be blaming this on my procrastination. But I don't procrastinate that baddd! I've just been kinda busy :/.
Well today was the last day of Harvey, and all the Seniors got to go out and get recognised. It was really nice to be standing out there with everyone :). But it's also kinda saddening, because today I was texting Dan about how my mom was making me so upset...and he was like "well if you go to a Virginia school I can still be close to you" and that made me kinda sad :/ i just wish I could make 50,000 dollars a year to go to Annapolis -_-.
Annie auditions are coming up soon, hopefully I can have fun with it and get a big part ^___^


caryatid

You Are the Only Exception

Woke up from a terrible nightmare this morning :(. I haven't had one of those in a while. Then I was late to school :P, but Veronica drove me so it's ok ^__^. But I didn't get to see Dan this morning :P made my day just a little less awesome. Then I fell down the stairs after Speech and now have a giant bruise on my shin...again -_-. I probably looked like a clumsy person T_T I wanna be graceful! Then I read The Awakening while i was home. A lot of people say that they don't enjoy the book, but I actually love it. I like how the women is being oppresses and she's starting to realize it, and to change that. Hopefully I can find an academic journal and finish writing a rough draft and a college essay so i can apply before Dec 1st for scholarships :P College applications are starting to catch up to me and I DO NOT LIKE THAT. Stresses the FUCK outta me. :/
I went for a run today, and my ears started to hurt cause i forgot to cover them :P. But it was a nice run ^__^. Also I hung with Paige, Phil, and Dan at Subway and Blockbuster, then we met Cat and Jiselle up at Dairy Queen. I love Jiselle and Cat they are so much fun!! And I need to watch a lot of movies MIDNIGHT SHOWING OF NEW MOON FRIDAY :D:D:D:D:D:D so excited. READY TO CRY XD.
Sometimes I wish i could know the truth about everything. Figure out when someone tells me a lie or doesn't tell me anything, that would be really nice. If I had a power i think i would choose the power of wisdom. I need me some wisdom, i hate how I'm perceived as naive. BECAUSE I'M NOT.
Church leaders trying to shut down our bible study, but we're resisting and I feel like a protestant XD.
I like the song "The Only Exception" by paramore ^__^ reminds me of my views on relationships...even though that's kinda sad.
Goals that I want to set for myself: Drive to downtown Annapolis ( I've never driven there yet XD), Get applications in by Dec 1st, Get a job during winter, find Dan a cool xmas gift :D


caryatid

Suddenly Everything has Changed

I feel so large.
I'm going to fix that.
I feel like I'm behind on everything.
I'm going to fix that.
I feel like i don't speak my mind as much as I should.
I'm going to fix that.

caryatid

Misguided Ghosts

I hate being so calm, i should try letting go every once in a while. Harvey's going well, i read backstage and do nothing after Act 1 Scene 1. LOL i didn't get the student Page position with the Maryland General Assembly -_- Andrew Fisher did of course. But I'm ok with that, because now I don't have to deal with another responsibility especially if I want to get a job after I'm done applying everywhere.
For the last week it's rained constantly, and the wind is so harsh it can lift you off your feet! Crazy. I've been listening to the song "misguided ghosts" by Paramore a lot lately. It makes me feel stable? i think that's the word.
I have to write an outline for my Senior Paper this weekend. Orlando is such a great book!I feel like I learned a lot from it :).

I'm just one of those ghosts
traveling endlessly
don't need no roads
infact they follow me
this is life
and pain is just a simple compromise


caryatid

Health

Alright, so lately I've been seriously lacking on my health. It's gotten bad, really really bad. I jiggle >.<. SO to fix that issue I've decided on making a workout plan! I think it will actually work because I did that a while back and then some and it worked! :D So hopefully I stay fit this fall/winter :).
Wicked was awesome! I love being in the city, and I think it's where I wanna be ^__^. Glinda was my favourite! She's so funny XD and I like the view of Oz. I would have never thought of it that way. Now I think I'll have to read the book ^__^ Haha, my book list is growing tremendously XD.
GLEE finally comes back on tonight :D I am totally pumped for that! XD OO and HARVEY is TOMORROWWWW. I feel like it all happened so fast! And I think everyone has improved greatly, buttttt I do still think the show isn't as funny as it could be. I do wish I had more parts in the play, but I also kinda like leaving early and having time to do homework.
I got two of my recommendations in to Sof and Wolff. I need to find Miss Blose but she got married, and is now Madame Corpella! Mrs. Brumbaugh is the french sub until she comes back from her Honeymoon ^__^.


Caryatid

Wicked

I'm excited for tomorrow. Last time i was in NYC was summer 2008 with Veronica! It'll be like a mini-vacation away from school lol.
Today went by REALLY REALLY slow...
There's a teacher at my school who's creepy.
I can't find my headphones.
I haven't felt this free in a while.
Although my back's in pain.
I still feel pretty great :)
Tomorrow will make it even better.


caryatid

q2q

I can't believe you would say those things. You're a lost cause to me now. I'm done trying. Sure I miss you, and you say you miss me. But that must have been a lie.
Are there any honest people left in this world?
I don't believe there are.
That frightens me, because i live off honestly. If you're to be trusted please stay true to me. If you're going to be a trickster...get out of my life now.
Q2Q today, fail. 3 hours late -_-
Excited for NYC Wednesday!
Life moves at you pretty fast. So if you don't stop to look around every once in awhile you might miss it.


Caryatid